I have nothing better to be doing but it is the best thing

For the past 1 hour, I been sitting outside, under a pillar in the St. Peter's square.
I don’t feel hungry, tired or scared.
I just feel defeated.

This morning I set out with a mission.
To conquer Rome.

I went to the Colosseum, then somewhere else, then Malayalam mass and by the time I figured out how to get here the basilica closed.

When trying to go in, the guy told me no but I didn’t try.
I should have asked if I could still go in.

Now my flight leaves tomorrow.
I don’t know what to do.

By being not risky to arrive 2 hours then, am I not being the type of person I want to be.
Or am I being dumb.

I really wanted to see the top of the world.

Also all my bank cards are failing now so don’t quite know what to do.

edit 2025: the story got wild after this